I'm not sure what to do.
I'm taking on too many projects at once.
I'm really discouraged by our progress professionally, ...and with our 'entertaining hobby', i.e. the RX Only Pictureshow.
I've gotten a decent start on getting back into email marketing and other Web article writing type stuff.
But I think this seasonal affective disorder depression, combined with all of the death and sadness surrounding me, (parallel to the weather change), it has really put me in a funk.
I feel a strong drive to keep on with the search for people 'influenced by' Gospel Kanye West' whether they love him or hate him. and how they feel about what I am coming to call "Gnostic Christianity". It's really more than Gnostic Christianity but--the specific details require some knowledge and some study--and for some people it actually creates an inner physical/spiritual awakening.
I'm experimenting with my note 10 smartphone because my desktop computer, (that I bought specifically for all of this type of work), has failed twice in the last 2 months. The fan has failed 2 times in a row now ( some people would blame that on astrology oh, I'm more inclined to believe it's just old and Junkie.)
I think I will buy peripherals for this smart phone and start to learn about what it can really do. I'll Press the limits of its full capacity. Right now I am using it to record this audio and transcribe it at the same time
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"I need to make a system"
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I will at least be much happier and more satisfied when I have a system that allows me to follow a "left to right Linear guideline" for each task I perform. It doesn't matter if it's a blog entry like this one - or -...an Investment into a bronze castings.
I've been studying systems for many years but there is this account on Twitter called @roguewealth who has really fired me backup for everything to do with systems. Also, a gentleman named Brian has truly helped me out by offering me a free consultation and encouraging me to buy some software that allows me to do "no code" Web design and get back into writing on a regular basis.
...so I'm shaking off the rust and dust, and I'll be prepared to bust out 500 or 1000 words on any given topic in exchange for money, very soon.
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--LIKE NOW!-- (I'm actually ready now.)
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I'm tired of being a want to be. I'm working through my depression and sadness.
(This sadness, especially concerning my estrangement from my children, because my Uncle is some kind of sequestered and secluded raving lunatic psychopath who is holding my daughters and his wife hostage on their little compound he Built-in North Idaho)
I have A spiritual routine of prayer and meditation each day that is really helping. I've really gotten back into reading and studying scripture for 10 or 20 minutes every morning and it brings me solace and gives me An anchor point.
I appreciate all of people That I have found it become close with via the Internet, and I am grateful for our weekly show, and the other work that I have done online. It draws me closer to people who share my beliefs and who share my sadness or who share my joy, and who understand these deep secret things that are only now starting to come to light for the rest of the English-speaking world. I think I'm going to call this a post and go and sit quietly before I start my work day.
Selah!
-sb
